2 posts in less than an hour time =D. decided to separate it since i didn’t want to make the previous post a super long one.

Communication night was on friday night. and this was suppose to be a farewell dinner for 3rd year seniors who will be graduating soon. yet, here we are, the 2nd year, having fun on our own there as well (since a few of my closest gals is the organising committee,we decided to go and help them out as usherers! =D)

A race to remember- roses and glitters. that’s the theme for that night. function was supposed to start at 8pm but ended up started at 9pm because everyone was super late! this is really a bad example and for someone that was time conscious and punctual like me,i do pissed off for a while. but guess that;s how malaysian work huh? no good no good, indeed. and yea, we were hungry and tired,wishing hard we could just sit down while we were standing there ushering people!

the food was great but because we are just too hungry,we forgot to took any pictures since we are busy globing down the food. =) and the rest of the night are spend taking pictures!  everyone is so pretty and gorgeous,so why waste it? =P

here’s some glimpse for the night!

that’s me,after getting my make up and hair done. =)

 

usherers of the night. everyone look so pretty and gorgeous!

 

with yi ling =)

 

with sue ann.and her dress is just so pretty and cute! and i super love her sueda beige heels!

 

with my lovelies at university. they add colours to my university lives and i love them!

 

with hot gorgeous wonderful lovelies!! my favourite people in university XD.i love them so so much =D

 

and of course, we didn’t end the night just like that. we do have our own after-party pre-planned earlier. =D we rawks right? girls just wana have fun and we do deserve some for working so hard and spend so many sleepless night and trying to cope and making sure the projects and assignments is done aside from making sure the night go smoothly.

that’s all for now. gonna go take a bath and get ready for dinner in a short while =)

oh, for all the lovelies out there, have fun and enjoy your day =D

muacks!

 

xoxo

It’s April!!! time sure flies! =)

today is Sunday and i’m lazing around as it i don’t have any assignment due (i had one article due on tue and i haven’t even start writing yet! =S) Bruno Mars’ s lazy song had been lingering in my mind for this 2 whole days. wonder how i gona ever get rid of my laziness and my great urge to procrastinate.

sleeping time and eating habit is all over the place and haywire. i slept in the morning and woke up in noon time. i ate one meal a day and surprisingly, i can actually stuff in many food at one time; resulted in not being able to take dinner. it’s so so so so so so so so unhealthy, yes, i know but i can’t help it.guess that’s what a university student should be =P (bad example! do not follow!)

it’s been a taxing followed by fun week. taxing in a sense that i had magzine assignment due on fri and my group members,again, driving me nuts.group assignments had never fail to traumatized me and i wonder what’s the problem here? maybe i’m at fault for having too much expectation? i tried to lower my expectation in work performance but i can’t stand it whenever people give me shitty work. i mean, come on,i’m doing the whole assignment and you’re only doing a small part of it. can’t you give me a good quality work instead of a shitty one and at one glance,one know it’s done effortless?don’t expect me to clear your shit k?

putting that aside, here’s a glimpse of the magazine i did =)

   front cover. =) it’s not that good as i should have done better.                more improvement needed.

last page. done in purpose as this magazine gonna have 2 cover page =)

editor’s note, content and editorial board. again, should have done better as this was done pretty last minute

the fashion part im doing. this is part of FEMALE magazine layout and somehow,i like it as it was simple but on the same time, it bring out the best of each product that was promoted in the page. pictures was hand pick one by one to make sure it match and come together =)

clarification: this is the layout from Female magazine. i merely change the fonts to make sure it fit with my magazine concept. pictures was taken from various website; I DO NOT OWN THESE PICTURES. and details to the pictures is made up. NON OF IT IS TRUE. again, credit given to female magazine for this wonderful layout as well as other websites for these wonderful images. =)

 

producing a complete magazine, i realised is not something easy. despite all those storm and bickering, i do enjoy the final product. i do meant to upload the whole magazine but some part are just so ugly i cant even bring myself to read it. they totally spoil the whole magazine. sigh, anyhow,i’m glad the ordeal is over and one more featured article to go before we wrap up this semestar. =D

i finally found the courage to move forward again,after feeling dejected for 2 whole day.

what has passed,there's no turning back to it.as much as i wanted to scream and throw tantrum or perhaps hoping for the time to go backward so that i can make amendment,those will just merely remain as something impossible.

the only thing i can do right now is work as hard as i can to make sure that i can make things better,even though it's only a little.it's tough but given the current situation,i was only offer 2 choices-screw up the whole paper or work as hard as i can in hope to improve my grades.screwing up the whole paper is definetly not something i would opt-never in my life will i choose to give up just like that!

the me right now,is just like clinging hard on a spider thread to make changes.

but still,it's better than choosing to give up without even trying.

who to blame??

as much as i wanted to put all the blame on the world,i still have to admit that at the end of the day,i'm supposed to blame myself, not someone else.

perhaps i didn't work hard enough

perhaps i should have spend more time on it

perhaps i was carried away

perhaps i took it for granted

perhaps......

perhaps......

all those hard work- sleepless night,time and effort spend,the frustration i had to bear and all those bitterness just go down the drain just like that.it makes me think-might as well as i just fool around,even i was subjected to this condition,i'm aware that i did not try hard enough.but,as for now,i feel like those effort are futile.hard work don't always paid off.or either,i'm not working hard enough.

for the time being,i just wanted to cry.and yet,i despise myself right now-i wanted to cry so badly but i can't find my tears.

yea,i'm officially screw up for this semestar.getting C for not one,not two but 3 courseworks are indeed more than enough to kill me off.with one of it is 70% coursework,that's it.

of course,i'm feeling super dissapointed now.it was like afterall,my worst grade ever.and i just have no idea how to survive this semestar.it pissed me off when my group members seem to not know anything bout it.and when one of them text me

'it's ok,you try your best.i'm sorry that i drag you down.'

i was left speechless and of course i'm angry as well.what's the point of apologizing now that the result is out?and nothing make me feel even frustrated to the fact that all those efforts,time and energy spend on those assignments just go down the drain like that.

perhaps,mum's call somehow add salt to the wound.she call just now and ask how's exam.i reply, 'like that lo.but i have a feeling i'm going to get bad result this sem'.i expect words of encouragement;i really do need those word from her.instead,all i get was, 'why your coursework so bad?' how am i supposed to know that?it's not like i was fooling around throughout the whole semestar and she said nothing esle after that.yea,it do break my heart.i know things is always different between me and my 2 brothers but i guess,at this point,i just cant take it anymore.

can i just cry like a child now?

i was left wavering with dissapointement one after another yesterday but a good 8 hours solid sleep might be exactly what i need to calm myself down.

getting C+ for both my assignments (with one of them are 70% coursework) definetly dealt me a big blow.afterall,i had never did so badly in my course before.the worse grad i ever get was B+ and that should be able to explain why i felt so upset.

to add salt to the wound,miscommunication happened between me and my research writing partner.perhaps both of us are at fault but with so much job pending,i just don;t have the time and energy to argue with him.i have better things to do than wasting my energy arguing with him.in reply for his sarcastic text messages,instead of replying his message with the same essence,i opt to just be calm and told him that i would get the job done. yes,i have strong work ethnic and perhaps that lead to my stubborn-bull-like personality.

anyhow,now that i'm feeling alright and calm,i should be getting back to my job.after all,my to-do list was kinda long today:

1.get the research writing ready according to the skeleton i made
2.re-construct the reading and points for my monday paper
3.study for tomorrow insurance exam (taking the exam for the sake of rm100.omg!)


yeap,i'm proud of myself that i wasn't dwelling at my misfortune like a sore loser.

aside from inspiration,i seriously need sufficient time to do my writing for the research paper.

writing under constrain and various pressure especially exam is a daunting task......i need to study for my exam and yet i have writing to submit on the same time.......

motivation,where are you?=( i need you badly!

while others are beginning the countdown towards the last day of exam, i'm still in the midst of counting down days for my papers to start. my first paper, after all is on 15th nov, 1 week from now.

and it seems like i'm having a battle with my internal self on the same time as well.exam period, is always a killer time for me. a time where we forcefully squeeze everything we learn in perhaps less than a week time into our poor brain, simply for the sake of one word 'EXAM'.and i, without fail, would have to force myself to study instead of slacking off.

learning process, to me, is supposed to be a process where i enjoy discovering new things that are alien to me and apply it according to my own flavor in life.instead,now,i found myself pushing myself real hard to study for exam;for the sake of getting a good grade and of course,dean list.

i wonder why all these matters so much to me; good grades and hitting dean list.no idea why though, afterall,i had the same question in my mind every since in secondary school.

above all,mr motivation, please come to me.i need you to survive this exam.=(

the 8th day of my 16 days holidays.....

it feels like yesterday when my holidays started.a week passed since then with me doing nothing much; being a couch potato instead of studying.and here i am,at this hour of the day, sitting in front of my lappie; struggling to finish my mounts of assignments.

the retribution for wasting 1 week:- i'm seriously short of time to finish my assignments and the most ironic thing is,i haven even started doing the assignment that was due right after raya holiday! OMG!!! >________________________<

as a reminder for myself,here's my to do list for this holidays.

YKT 211 Communication Research - literature review
YKT 214 Communication Technology - 6 pages assignments with at least 25 references
YWP 211 Journalism I - 6 pages assignment on book review
AKW 104 Finance and Accounting - study up 3 topics for quiz (deadline??14 sept)
SKW 104 Introduction to Economy - 30 pages on Dasar Wawasan Negara (DONE!!!!! ^_^)

looking at my to do list......*sigh* i'm pretty much dead.

and i wonder why time never wait?

it's tuesday...wait,is it supposed to be wednesday considering the time now?anyway,who cares? raya break is less than 2 weeks time and the idea of getting to go back home gets me feeling excited like a little kid.of course,i didn't get a break for nothing.having a 2 weeks holiday in the middle of semestar means i would have to go back home with perhaps 2 big bags of books, again.with YKT214, communication technologies due right after the end of raya break,i wouldn't dream of getting be be a couch potato during holiday (my lecturer was like super strict and i bet she dare to fail us if she's not satisfied with our work!) and more than 25 references for a 6 pages assignment????? >_______________________<

putting that aside,went for jazz band 'buka puasa' potluck yesterday and considering the atmosphere,it was kind of fun.wwe have lots of food; murtabak,chicken curry,cakes,all those kuih-muih, cakes, fried chicken,kfc and lots more.having so much food being put nicely in a long table in front of you when you're hungry to the max makes it even more harder to resist it.i guess the food are way much tastier when you eat it in a big group.

and i wonder why,amidst of being in a crowd of people,i feel so lonely to the extend that i didn't know where feeling came from?



yeap,that's me,playing violin during practise.the pics turns out to be great except that,why i look so emo in it???


oh yea,been wanting to put this up for a while too.pictures from the steamboat gathering we had for our coursemate,mei juan who's going for exchange programme in taiwan for a semestar.gona miss her! (more like a farewell party) and have a great time there!




whole bunch of us...considering the food we ate,for girls,that's scary.XD










thanking pei juan for those wonderful pics.am loving it!

"i'll pull it through."

convincing my heart with that sentence,i wonder what miracle it'll do me.

i found it hard for me to cope up with the rest of my coursemates in my major,journalism.i have always love to write and being a journalist was my aim in life.
that's it when i thought that everything was going smoothly.

i found myself being the only chinese in my major and somehow,things started to freak me out little by little.i found it ironic when i no longer looking forward to attend my major lecture, nor having the urge to find out what's going on.writing to me,in that lecture, is not something i enjoyed doing anymore,instead it turns out to be something that's been done for the sake of passing exam with distinction.

communicationg with my new coursemates turns out to be another daunting task for me.i can go around being friendly with them but somehow,i couldn't bring myself to do it - i feel like i'm being fake and bitchy for doing this for the sake of wanting to know more people just because i was alone - and my principle in a relationship especially in friendship,i choose to take a longer time to get to know someone;i wanted to know more bout them and whether or not i should give it a go.well, maybe i'm the reserved kind of people (wtf.....a communication students is saying stuff like being reserved when she should be good in communciation!)

giving up now was not something i would opt to.instead of giving up,i want to try not to give up.yes,i'm aware that achieving your dream was not an easy task to do (who said life is easy to begin with?) i wanted to keep hanging on to the end and perhaps,this may be the key for me to get myself out of my comfort zone.gotta keep being optimistic!!

i belive hardwork paid off in the end.the climb is high and tough but the view on top of it is great.

FINALLY!!!!!i'm feeling healthy enough - without diarrhea,gastric and what-so-ever that'll send me rolling on my bed all day long; be it day or night! ok,i'm not fully that healthy yet,at least,mr diarrhea and mr gastric decided to slowly excuse themselves. (thank god!!)

come to think of it,i've never been this sick for like.....many years???down with flu and sorethroat at times and maybe a bit fever and mild gastric.but this time round,i'm not sure of what i've done that make my body resented me and decided to take revenge on me and ah ha!!!flu,sorethroat and fever for 2 days, gastric pain that send me rolling on the bed (i give up rolling half way coz my energy are all drained) for 5 days and yeah,diarrhea for 3 days.cool combination huh?

newae,now that i'm slowly recovering,im glad those ordeals was past.surviving with oni a few slice of biscuits and a cup of milo or warm milo definetly not a nice way of living.especially when you're down with diarrhea when you almost eat nothing!!!combination of diarrhea and gastric is the worst!!!!why??well,you're practically in pain to the point that you lost the ability to identify whether is gastric pain or diarrhea.for me,i thought it was gastric but found myself squatting in the toilet,diarrhea-ing and gastric on the same time.cool huh??

and so,lesson of the day?NEVER EVER DO THINGS THAT UPSET YOUR BODY OR MAKE YOUR BODY RESENT YOU.you can't afford to be in their game.pleased them,you'll lead an easier life.=)


by the way,another random post.i just found out that i was one of the winner for mix fm online contest!i completely forgot bout it til my mum hand me the book- cecelia ahern's the book of tomorrow!!!!!so yeah,i was excited bout it;i've been wanting this book for so long but couldn't bring myself to buy it cause it's expensive and i'm broke.here's a glimpse of my precious!!




ain't she's lovely??? ok,i confess,i'm a book addict and book are one of the thing that can get me feel excited in less than 5 seconds.XD

newae,had steamboat with 3 of my coursemates and my ex-roomate and it was awesome!my ex-roomate brought the soup base paste all the way from beijing and we had a fun time spending time together since we won't be able to meet each other that often once assignments,presentations and exams are waiting for us. -___-".

i browse through facebook just now and stumble upon a few people whom i haven't been in contact in them at all for few years and my,i was shocked at the fate that they've changes soooo much!!perhaps,it was me that's did not,all this while, realise that people go on with their life too.>.<

and,i began to wonder how are they doing now?seriously,if i were to meet up those people again (some of them are wonderful people!) i'll tried to make up for the time i leave and neglect.