while others are beginning the countdown towards the last day of exam, i'm still in the midst of counting down days for my papers to start. my first paper, after all is on 15th nov, 1 week from now.

and it seems like i'm having a battle with my internal self on the same time as well.exam period, is always a killer time for me. a time where we forcefully squeeze everything we learn in perhaps less than a week time into our poor brain, simply for the sake of one word 'EXAM'.and i, without fail, would have to force myself to study instead of slacking off.

learning process, to me, is supposed to be a process where i enjoy discovering new things that are alien to me and apply it according to my own flavor in life.instead,now,i found myself pushing myself real hard to study for exam;for the sake of getting a good grade and of course,dean list.

i wonder why all these matters so much to me; good grades and hitting dean list.no idea why though, afterall,i had the same question in my mind every since in secondary school.

above all,mr motivation, please come to me.i need you to survive this exam.=(

i suppose i ask that question in an absent minded manner.that explain why it took her a long time to reply me.

*there's no more baby la.the baby's heart stop beating at 7 weeks*

that leaves me stunned for a while.i felt like it was as if i was adding salt to her wound.panic attack me and i was frantically trying to construct my reply in my mind.

i apologise for not knowing it and even though she said she's ok,i still feel bad.feeling guilty for not knowing it earlier.feeling worse for bringing up the subject that would hurt her.and to end these awkwardness,i lie that i had to resume studying...perhaps,simply because i didn't know what to say...neither i know of the proper way to console her as i did not want to make things worse.

i know she wont get a chance to read this but i stil want to say:

jia,i'm really sorry for not being sensitive enough.and im sure things will be better for you; god must have something esle in his mind.yet,im sorry for asking ou that question. =( really sorry

*cross fingers*

praying hard that dad recover soon.... ='(

for a moment,i decided to just stop going forward and take a good look around my surrounding; the people,the environment and little little small things in life.

my university life,perhaps,meeting them was the best gift i received so far.meeting them,getting to know them and ended up being together with them,truth be told,i indeed feel really bless!



getting to know you guys,perhaps it's one of the best thing ever that happen in my life.

and i just want you guys to know how happy i am for knowing you guys.how glad i am to have you guys beside me and i cherish you guys from the bottom of my heart.=)





i love you girls!!♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Work + Halloween = FUN!!

yeap, as the tittle goes, working on halloween day spells fun!!

been working as redbull ME girls on 30 and 31 oct at genting highland for the trialthon competition held there. practically, i think we work less than 5 hours (well,we do work smart and fast) and we get rm120 for that!awesome max!

had a tour around genting near one world at night as i was supposed to go in the casino!!(never been to one in my whole life and i just turn 21!) and yet, all those excitedness are killed off when 2 of my friends are being shoo out by the guard(not officially 21 yet) from not only 1 but 2 casinos!!OMG!seriously almost died from embarrassement. =.= no joke!

but anyhow, we do manage to get some nice pics and have our own fun, so i guess it's okay then.=) and here are some pics to do all the talking =)




had dinner at one of the vietnamese restaurant and the food there are awesome max!












the best brain food of the day!! =) and the price is reasonable as well.too bad i cant take beef.='(




with yi ling and ciara.=) love them both so much!




yea,i'm cam-whoring in the bathroom.>.< but i cant help myself.XD




with yi ling =)




with ciara ;P




standing next to me is the marketing supervisor and since it's halloween, she decided to pretend as a ghost and she do have a fun time going around scaring people off their head.




with ranny (the last on the left) love this pic soooo much!everyone look so pretty in it. XD