i found my way back here after a long hiatus. =)

in a blink of eyes, it’s been one month since i first started my internship. i remembered writing down how depressed i felt during the first week of internship. it sure took me a while but now that i look back at those time, i’m glad i manage to scrap those day through. it was never easy but at least, it’s worthwhile.

turns out all those people are not as bad as they seemed. perhaps it was the way of communication that was so differ from what i used to. colleagues are willing to teach you things when you asked. sometimes, they were willing to gave you opportunities to trained and proved yourself.

however, that doesn’t meant one can take it for granted. for opportunities come and slip away just like that. it’s either you put in a lot of effort and make sure it work out, or you just screw it out. 

colleagues, as much as they smiled and laughed out loud, at times, it seemed like there’s something else lies within the happiness. for each of them were, or maybe still are haunted by the ghost of past. desperation, emotion, un-satisfaction, injustice, doubts, those negative waves once washed away their youth for a few years; they were almost drown in it.

life, never promised a smooth sailing trip to begin with. when things goes the way you want, life seemed like a fairy tale. a tale that was too good to be true at times. however, when you were slapped hard with reality, it feels like you were hit at the rock bottom. Hard and rough, with no where to escape now here to run.

i screwed up once and almost drown myself in the sea of desperation. it was hard to build back the confidence that was smashed to pieces. but i guess, for now, i shall just hang on there.

i’ll hang on and scrap through this no matter how hard is it, till i welcome the 4th friday.