i wonder what kills a relationship,friendship especially? distance? interest? point of view? or maybe the understanding that fades with time without anyone of us knowing it?

it’s funny. funny how good friends become strangers. how keeping what we feel towards each other to ourselves. how we would feel neglected by when we found out we were left out in an outing or lunch. how the closeness now replace with coldness.

so tell me, what kills a friendship? had the 2 years friendship built with a lot of effort,patience and love was so fragile that it could break any moment if it weren’t handle with care? what does friendship means if you have to be guarded all the time? why is it that we had become so greedy to the extend that we get dissapointed if our expectation was not met? and why is it that the differences between each of us that we once can accept it, not we see it as something against the self belief we hold onto?

i didn’t know if i can take this any longer. this is just dissapointing, heart wrenching. it’s even more heart breaking when you realise you cant save the friendship despite trying the hardest you can get. when you see them drifting apart away from you even though you tried all your best to cling on them.

i wish i could turn back the time,so that i can just have things back to how they were used to be. the smiley innocent faces,the chattering and laughter during dinner and lunch everyday. and the pillow talk and girls talk that we used to have last time.

those photos that once craved a smile on my face now just left me feeling disheartening. everthing remained the same in the photo, but the people, they changed and that including me.

but,i wonder did they know despite how i changed, my feelings remained the same. i treasure this relationship, each of them just. little did they know about it,i ponder?

did you know i have died everyday waiting for you and willing to love you more than a thousand years?

someday, i wish i could play this song to people i love. chrsitina perri’s a thousand years. i’ve love them for a few years if not a thousand years but i would love to love them forever. i wish i could tell this to that one person but at least, not for now. a crush is not a love and unless i’m pretty sure it’s love towards him, i shall keep mum about it. that is if he feel the same way towards me too which i doubt because he seems to have a girl he like. so yea,pathetic and ironic huh?

i love this song, it gave me a shimmer light of hope. deep inside my heart, i wish i would be singing this song forever. this song but not katy perry’s the one that got away.

please don’t be the one that got away from me.