the end of music camp spells the beginning of the semester. strange enough, as much as i dread the beginning of the semester for the past 2 years, this time round, i was looking forward for it. probably because of the 4 long months of holidays [though i stay home for a month plus for 2 different periods of time, i was rotting from boredom]

as if it was not strange enough, the recent music camp did a lot of wonders too. yea, i had bad and good times- there are times where i played well, other time where i screwed up for god sake. but life goes on; when a window close,another open. opportunities are there for me; i was given a solo for a song as well as to improvise on 2 songs. yea, it was indeed a coincidence but what is opportunities if it never comes and goes as it please?

while i was all so lonely for last year’s music camp, this time round, i get to be a lil bit closer with a few juniors. it was comfortable being around them; there were less drama, no backstabbing and no political issues. all we did was we crapped, laughed and do nonsense together. it was pleasant to be around them; unlike those of my batch, their drama,jealousy and fake self alone are more than enough to exhaust you both mentally and physically.

i asked a person a question, “are we still friends?” yea, i said i would ignore him, but for the past few years, i had lose enough friends.  some who forsake me for the sake of popularity, jealousy, pride and most of reasons that i’m not aware off. as much as i wanted to keep this friendship alive, i realised it was impossible. to keep a one way relation alive when it was supposed to be a two way, just how long can you hang on there?

first week of semester itself, i just couldn’t find any words to describe it. i can totally feel the upcoming crazy workload as well as sleepless nights to come. i can feel the struggle that i’ll have to face,like it or not. despite all that, for some reasons, i have a good feeling about it. perhaps, all this time, i’ve finally grow up and be matured for real.

it’s my final year and i had a long to do list before i call myself a graduate from this university. it might be a tough year but definitely, it’ll be decorated with many blissful wonderful memories.

everything right now, is just so good and i’m feeling blessed like a lil kid again