one of my friends told me,'if i were to experience 10 sadness in return for one happiness,i rather not to know what happiness is.'

if i were subjected to that condition,if i was given the chance to go back in time,i would choose to walk the same path;i would go for 1 happiness with 10 sadness in return.

perhaps it was simply because,up till now,my life revolve around this concept.stupid and meaningless,yes i know.but maybe because of that,i learn to treasure all those good times i had; embed it deep into my heart,embracing the faith that thing's will be alright in bad times.

or maybe,because i feel everything is upside down for me that i would said such things.i slowly but definitely begin to hate the things i enjoyed doing most.attending family function (big bro convocation) which was supposed to be a happy family gathering makes me feels like dying of despair and isolation deep inside and the list goes on.and here i am,struggling to hold on still to what i believe is right and refusing to give it up.

and i believe,no matter how hard things are to me now,tomorrow will be better.=)

few pics to complete this post-taken during bro's convocation:










more pics to come bout my recent job as 'go block' model.but gona save it for the next post....gotta get working now.sigh~~

watch titanic,again, yesterday and found intersting quote from there.

a woman's heart is like a deep ocean of secrets.

sounds true to me.hidden in my heart were uncountable secrets that's not know to anyone.no one in my circle of friends knew about this very blog existance that i owned.

i do feel the need to freely write down what i feel in my everyday life since expressing it through words and face to face prove to be a daunting task for me...perhaps,simply because i didn't know who to turn to.somehow,i'm lost along in the sea of secrets.

if it's possible,i would prefer none of them realised or found this blog at all.if they manage,i can imagine how devastating and heart broken they would be;judging from the stuff i blog here and simply because,i undergo the same experience before.

the 8th day of my 16 days holidays.....

it feels like yesterday when my holidays started.a week passed since then with me doing nothing much; being a couch potato instead of studying.and here i am,at this hour of the day, sitting in front of my lappie; struggling to finish my mounts of assignments.

the retribution for wasting 1 week:- i'm seriously short of time to finish my assignments and the most ironic thing is,i haven even started doing the assignment that was due right after raya holiday! OMG!!! >________________________<

as a reminder for myself,here's my to do list for this holidays.

YKT 211 Communication Research - literature review
YKT 214 Communication Technology - 6 pages assignments with at least 25 references
YWP 211 Journalism I - 6 pages assignment on book review
AKW 104 Finance and Accounting - study up 3 topics for quiz (deadline??14 sept)
SKW 104 Introduction to Economy - 30 pages on Dasar Wawasan Negara (DONE!!!!! ^_^)

looking at my to do list......*sigh* i'm pretty much dead.

another post in less than 5 mins.=)

i meant to blog down what i feel but it would be waste if i didn't share the articles with you guys; neither to make my post a super long one.and so,this is specially dedicated to my thoughts.=)

i was watching this movie earlier (forgot what's the name), real life story - heroine was milly,a woman who fought parkinson disease till to her last breath.yea yea,i like inspirational stuff but if it tach me the value of life,why not?

and i realise something.

in a relationship,
i don't need you to be handsome,to be rich.
i just want you to understand me,
make sure i didn't go astray from my path,
telling me what is right what is wrong - not keeping a blind eyes simply because you want to please me
be there when i need you most - in times of trouble and happiness.






growing old together with people you love the most,it turns out that not everyone have this privelage. i used to think, growing old is scary but it turns out that, if you really been given the chance,god must have think that you deserve it. =)




at the end of the days,it doesn't matter how much wealth you own, all that counts was the longing to spend the rest of your remaining life with your love one.

i stumble upon this intersting article as i randomly google around;searching for a suitable pic that would represent my thought.and it seems like as people grow older,they became wiser.wonder if i'll be like them?i would like to share this with you guys. =) hope u'll love it.


TIME GETS BETTER WITH AGE – Age 5 to age 92; Read it through to the end, it gets better as you go!

I’ve learned that I like my teacher because she cries when we sings “Silent Night”. Age 5

I’ve learned that our dog doesn’t want to eat my broccoli either. Age 7

I’ve learned that when I wave to people in the country, they stop what they are doing and wave back. Age 9

I’ve learned that just when I get my room the way I like it, Mom makes me clean it up again. Age 12

I’ve learned that if you want to cheer yourself up, you should try cheering someone else up. Age 14I’ve learned that although it’s hard to admit it, I’m secretly glad my parents are strict with me. Age 15

I’ve learned that silent company is often more healing than words of advice. Age 24

I’ve learned that brushing my child’s hair is one of life’s great pleasures. Age 26

I’ve learned that wherever I go, the world’s worst drivers have followed me there. Age 29

I’ve learned that if someone says something unkind about me, I must live so that no one will believe it. Age 30

I’ve learned that there are people who love you dearly but just don’t know how to show it. Age 42

I’ve learned that you can make some one’s day by simply sending them a little note. Age 44

I’ve learned that the greater a person’s sense of guilt, the greater his or her need to cast blame on others. Age 46

I’ve learned that children and grandparents are natural allies. Age 47

I’ve learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow. Age 48

I’ve learned that singing “Amazing Grace” can lift my spirits for hours. Age 49

I’ve learned that motel mattresses are better on the side away from the phone. Age 50

I’ve learned that you can tell a lot about a man by the way he handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights. Age 51

I’ve learned that keeping a vegetable garden is worth a medicine cabinet full of pills. Age 52

I’ve learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you miss them terribly after they die. Age 53

I’ve learned that making a living is not the same thing as making a life. Age 58

I’ve learned that if you want to do something positive for your children, work to improve your marriage. Age 61

I’ve learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance. Age 62

I’ve learned that you shouldn’t go through life with a catcher’s mitt on both hands. You need to be able to throw something back. Age 64

I’ve learned that if you pursue happiness, it will elude you. But if you focus on your family, the needs of others, your work, meeting new people, and doing the very best you can, happiness will find you. Age 65

I’ve learned that whenever I decide something with kindness, I usually make the right decision. Age 66

I’ve learned that everyone can use a prayer. Age 72

I’ve learned that even when I have pains, I don’t have to be one. Age 82

I’ve learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love that human touch-holding hands, a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back. Age 90

I’ve learned that I still have a lot to learn. Age 92


*credits to american retired seniors*
http://www.americanretiredseniors.com/inspiration-and-humor/time-gets-better-with-age/#more-1182

familiar walkway
familiar faces
familiar bolster
familiar voices.....

after 2 long months,i'm finaly back home.=)

ただいま！！