awkwardness.

i wonder if there’s any other words that could best replace this word. as hard as i tried to act normal, i could still sense the awkwardness in the air. and to be frank, i seriously didn’t like this feeling at all. this afternoon had been a frustrating one; how you could not be frustrated when all your hard work just go down the drain?

despite that, i’m glad with all the changes that happened. i started to slowly get along with a few of the juniors and i smiled, talked and laugh a lot right now. i do get depress once in a while; especially during practise when we were bombard with sarcasm but other than that, i’m coping well with my new life.

as for this awkwardness, i shall just ignore it and treat it as nothing had happened. i’m so not into any kind of unwanted attention again so yea, i’m gonna be firm this time. for the being, getting the music right would be my main priorities.

for some reasons, always, i’m in a love hate relationship with music. it may be rewarding at times, but it may be frustrating as well. i shall pray hard my tutor is not trying to get me into hot soup again this time.

life goes on and it gonna make me strong in the process. i’m enjoying and loving my life now :)