i expected the situation,i knew it well all along.and yet,why am i feeling so dissapointed?

feeling unappreciated is definetly the worse feeling ever.being made transparent in front of the whole band add salt to the wound.so tell me,am i suppose to feel dissapointed even though i knew it all along?i had enough of it and i'm sick having to endure this kind of feeling.

it's not like we refuse to play or put any effort into learning the whole songs.we did put effort it just that like 'you' said,we face a lot of obstacles-time constraint is the major factor of course.and certainly 'you' just can't expect us to play like professional in just less than 2 weeks time.mind you,i just pick up flute in less than 3 months and for me to be able to play most of the part in the repertoires,what esle do you expect?

i had enough with everything.i do really wish i cant choose not to give a damn about whatever things that is happening.

but again,if only i was able to do it.at least i was spare from waves of dissapointment.............

music making in jazz band,definetly is not fun at all at this point,and i meant it.