i suppose i ask that question in an absent minded manner.that explain why it took her a long time to reply me.

*there's no more baby la.the baby's heart stop beating at 7 weeks*

that leaves me stunned for a while.i felt like it was as if i was adding salt to her wound.panic attack me and i was frantically trying to construct my reply in my mind.

i apologise for not knowing it and even though she said she's ok,i still feel bad.feeling guilty for not knowing it earlier.feeling worse for bringing up the subject that would hurt her.and to end these awkwardness,i lie that i had to resume studying...perhaps,simply because i didn't know what to say...neither i know of the proper way to console her as i did not want to make things worse.

i know she wont get a chance to read this but i stil want to say:

jia,i'm really sorry for not being sensitive enough.and im sure things will be better for you; god must have something esle in his mind.yet,im sorry for asking ou that question. =( really sorry